This is going to be a short one because I’ve dissected this a thousand times in my head already…
Since like the dawn of time…at least that’s what it feels like, I’ve had two ‘best friends’ if you will… they are always here for me and I feel like I can tell them everything. Actually, all three of us went to the same middle school together, but now, every one of us study in a different college. One of them is M (I’ve written about her before) and the other one is a guy. Let’s call him Mike for the sake of this story.
Everything was just peachy until, a year ago, Mike started dating one of my other close friends whom I’ve been friends with SINCE KINDERGARTEN.
Anyway, the whole shebang started to take off when Mike’s girlfriend told him that she didn’t want him to hang out with me anymore… Yeah…We’re going there… Apparently, she can tolerate other girls but she has a specific problem with me and with the fact that we are so close. Girl! Cut the crap! I am not responsible for neither your insecurities nor your imagination!!
But this is not where my problem with her lies. Yes, it’s odd that you think you can tell people who they can and cannot be friends with but okay, everyone is their own special kind of weird…
My problem is that she DIDN’T EVEN BOTHER TO TELL ME that she has a problem with me or how she feels about this whole situation. And I was pissed as hell, still am!! No, after 13 YEARS OF FRIENDSHIP she has the AUDACITY to just cut me out of her life and not talk to me anymore, because, yeah, that’s a grown-up thing to do.
Now, I’m not gonna contact her because this would make an impression that I am sorry and I will… basically give myself a big old F YOU… and that ain’t gonna happen. I have nothing to be sorry about.
I guess I wanted to show by writing this how damn easy it is for people walk out of your life like it’s worth nothing. Practicing self-preservation and self-care are often mistaken for selfishness or arrogance, but the truth is…when you’ve experienced this kind of pain or heartache before, you don’t want to go through it again.
I’ve learned that people who are meant to BE and to STAY in your life, WILL stay. And the ones that just want to walk in and out when it’s convenient for them, aren’t worth letting in at all.
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Wow, this was definitely not a short one…but I feel like I said everything I wanted to say and that is fine by me.
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